Writing with Dyslexia – My Story

Dyslexia is more common than you might think. This debilitating learning disability affects twenty percent of the population. You might recognize famous names that have it. Local Seattle radio host and former Partridge Family star Danny Bonaduce, Jennifer Aniston, Steven Spielberg, Whoopi Goldberg, and Jay Leno have it just to name a few. Even Albert Einstein had dyslexia.

But what exactly is dyslexia? Dyslexia is defined as “a general term for disorders that involve difficulty in learning to read or interpret words, letters, and other symbols, but that does not affect general intelligence.

This last part is so very important. I have it, but my IQ is actually above average. I’ve been tested above 120. However, growing up in school, I was called dumb, stupid, and idiot. Not only by my classmates but was called stupid by my teachers in grade school. This affected me greatly and was the cause of my low self-esteem. Even my dad used the term dumb and stupid when I was growing up. These hurtful terms were used mainly due to ignorance.

Writing this article is extremely difficult. Not only because I can’t spell, but it brings back those terrible memories of how I was treated in school. More on that a little later. First, you need to understand that there are four types of Dyslexia. They include phonological dyslexia, surface dyslexia, rapid naming deficit, and double deficit dyslexia.

Let’s examine each one. First up is phonological, which is defined by dyslexia-reading-well.com as extreme difficulty reading that is a result of phonological impairment. This means the ability to manipulate the basic sounds of language. The individual sounds of language become ‘sticky’, unable to be broken apart and manipulated easily. This type of dyslexia is synonymous with dyslexia itself. Next up is surface dyslexia. This is defined as a sub-type characterized by difficulty with whole word recognition and spelling. Someone with surface dyslexia can usually master phonics but cannot read words that are spelled differently than they sound (irregular words) as defined by learninglabfl.com. They also define rapid naming deficit dyslexia, as the difficulty of quickly naming things such as numbers, letters, and colors on sight. Finally, the double-deficit hypothesis of dyslexia suggests that both rapid naming and phonological impairments can cause reading difficulties and that individuals who have both of these deficits show greater reading impairments compared to those with a single deficit.

Growing up in school was torturous. I was teased and bullied by kids and ridiculed by the teachers. Unfortunately, in the mid-sixties, there wasn’t a lot of information about dyslexia. If there was, they didn’t want to take the time to work with me. I was always told I was holding the whole class behind. I was held back in second grade because my reading skills weren’t aligned with everyone else’s. That killed me being so young and not allowed to advance with the rest of my class. Later, I believe it was in the fifth grade, I would be taken out of the classroom and placed in the hallway in a conference room, by myself. The teacher would grab an encyclopedia, open it to a similar lesson the rest of the class was learning about. Then, I was told to copy the entire text, word-for-word. When asked why I was being put all by myself in this conference room, the teacher would say that it’s because the rest of the class suffers if I’m there during these lessons; I’m holding everyone else back.

This is actually the worst thing you can make a dyslexic child do; copy text word-for-word until its right. Which, when I brought my finished paper to the teacher, they’d glance it over and say it was wrong. Start over, without telling me why it’s wrong. I cried in the conference room because I was so frustrated. I began to think that I was actually stupid. I could never get it a hundred percent correct. So, every day in the fifth grade, I was sequestered in my special little room to pencil out passages from an encyclopedia. 

Two, four, six, eight, you can never get it straight, was the kids’ mantra. This would make me cry even more, which would bring more teasing.

The effect this had on my self-esteem was tremendous. I never excelled in school. I hated going and I was drained of being teased and bullied every day. I failed many classes, not being able to learn like everyone else. So, I turned to read science fiction. It was my escape from everything. I loved it. It shaped me and how I viewed the world. In fact, I read so much, I was named bookworm in High School, or “Bookie” for short. I took Library Science as an elective class and for four years, spent a good amount of my time there. It was the only class I got A’s in and it was the only class I never skipped.

I thought I could read fairly well, but I failed every English class. I had to take Freshman English in high school every year. In my senior year, I had to pass this class, or face not graduating. Every year, I would get the same teacher. I remember her well; Mrs. Scoogle, dressed in grey clothes and her hair in a greying tight bun. Well, the first day of my senior year, I walked into my freshman English class and took a seat in the first row. Well, guess who they assigned me for my teacher. Yep, it was my nemesis, Mrs. Scoogle. Her first words to me, in her English accent, were, “Well, Mr. Larson, I see you’re here for another round. I suppose you enjoy punishment?” My response was, “I suppose I do, but I’m going to pass this time!” She said, well, “Good luck, Mr. Larson.” She ended up giving me a D minus, but it was a passing grade. I think she passed me so she wouldn’t have to suffer with me next year.

I was never diagnosed. No one ever took the time to work with me to tell me I had this debilitating learning disability. It wasn’t until my adult life that someone asked me if I was dyslexic. I ask them what’s that? So, for the first time in my life, someone took the time to explain it. It all made sense why I couldn’t spell. It made sense why numbers were always transposed and I sucked at math. 

Armed with my newfound knowledge, I began to understand my learning disability and began to realize that I wasn’t stupid or dumb. It wasn’t until my current wife, Diana, encouraged me to excel. So, I enrolled in online college and sought my Bachelor’s Degree in Business. Four years later, I graduated with honors. I continued and obtained my Masters in Business and at the age of fifty, I graduated with a 4.0 GPA. I finally excelled in school because I understood why. I was able to learn skills to overcome. 

I still have trouble with spelling and superimposing numbers, but I know my issues and have overcome them. That’s one reason why I began writing science fiction; it was my love of reading stories and my wife’s encouragement. I’ve currently published thirty-one books spanning seven different series, including a cookbook! Currently, I’m working on book number thirty-two and there’s no end in sight.

After EatSleepWrite owner Adam Scull asked me to write a post about it, I felt a tremendous need to tell my story. The key takeaway is that you can do it. Don’t ever listen to anyone say you can’t excel. I’m living proof that you can overcome dyslexia. You’ll never be cured, but being armed with the knowledge that you have a learning disorder, you can overcome and achieve any goal you put your mind to.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story and I wish each and every one of you success in all that you do.

Until next time, this is Author Brian K. Larson, Sparking Imaginations, One book at a time.

Overcoming Writer’s Block

If you say you don’t, you’re not being truthful. Not to yourself or your followers. It happens to all of us. I’m just as guilty as the next with difficulties putting words down on paper, or electronically, these days.

Yeah, I’ve had some dark days. I’ve had days where I sit staring at my computer. My hands fixed on the keyboard, ready to go. But then, nothing happens. I can’t think of anything to type. No words flow on the page. It can be very frustrating. It can be self-defeating. So, what do you do when you are afflicted with this problem? It’s more common than you think. Writer’s block happens, not only to writers, but it can happen in all walks of life; artists, poets, and even entrepreneurs can suffer from this.

First, we need to understand what Writer’s Block is. According to Webster’s Dictionary: Writer’s Block is “a psychological inhibition preventing a writer from proceeding with a piece.” So, what exactly does that mean? First of all, those two large words at the beginning of the definition are a bit scary; psychological and inhibition. Wow, does that mean you need a psychologist? Not at all. It simply means that your mind is being inhibited or being restricted in performing creativity.

Sounds simple enough, right? Well, it really is a simple thing. Think about that meaning. Your mind is being restricted. How’s that? Our minds are easily distracted. This comes anywhere from our cell phones to life problems. We’re so tied to our phones, the internet, social media, and such, that, at times, it breaks our chain of thought. We have fears, anxiety, self-criticizing, and self-judgment. 

All these things can cause Writer’s Block. So, what can we do to overcome this? Again, the solution to this problem can be as easy as the problem itself. 

First off, get rid of the distractions by turning off or silencing your not-so-smart phone. Close your web browser and social media apps. I’m just as guilty of peeking on those pages to see what’s going on. Don’t do it. 

Next, set a specific time to write, every day. It’s important to find the best time that you’re not likely to be interrupted. Mornings work the best for me. I feel the most creative between 6am to 10am. This time differs, but it’s important to know when you’re the best at what you do. Just like exercising muscles, your brain needs exercise. The more you write, the stronger and more proficient you become. Trust me on this one. If you don’t write something every day, you will lose muscle mass, so to speak. Even if you only write a few paragraphs or a few lines per day, it’s very important to do it daily. 

Another great idea is setting a goal for yourself. Goal setting is very important. Know your limits and set realistic goals. If you normally write five-hundred words a day, don’t set a goal for two thousand. Instead, set a goal for seven hundred. Once you meet that goal. Set a larger goal. Reaching your daily goal is rewarding and it will allow you to write more. I personally have written twenty-five hundred words a day. My highest day is five-thousand. However, there are times when five-hundred words are challenging. Don’t be discouraged if you aren’t hitting your goal. Perhaps, it’s too high. Reset your goal to a more realistic number and before you know it, you’re exceeding your expectations. 

We inhibit ourselves by our own words. Guilty as charged. We are our own worst enemy or critic. Don’t slip into that. Boy, it’s easy to say things to ourselves. An example is saying, ‘we’re not good enough or ‘you can’t do this or ‘can’t do that.’ I have been saying can’t for quite a while and once you start tearing yourself down, it’s difficult to stop. Turn that around and be a can do this and can do that. My writing is awesome!

If you meditate or pray, start your writing time with ten to fifteen minutes of relaxing. I find doing this will jump-start the day. I suggest no more than fifteen minutes if you’re not used to it as you could find yourself falling asleep. At least that’s what happens for me.

It’s important to take breaks during your writing period. I find that for every twenty minutes of writing, I take five minutes and walk around and stretch. Then it’s right back to it for another twenty. Again, everyone is different. Perhaps you can go longer periods and can get away with shorter breaks. 

If you find that you’re just not getting anything done. Switch it up. Write something different. It’s also okay to take a day off. I write five days and then take the weekends off. It’s really up to you, but try and write each and every day and you’ll find you’ll get stronger and more proficient, just like working out; you build endurance.

I hope this helps you overcome your Writer’s Block. 

Until next time, this is Author Brian K. Larson, Sparking Imaginations. 

BIG NEWS!! The Return of ‘Everything Sci-Fi’

I very excited to announce that I’m returning to Eat Sleep Write, hosted by Adam Scull.

After a long hiatus, Adam has returned with the eatsleepwrite.org site that hosts various author blogs and their backstories. Adam is a long time photographer that was involved with Studio 54 back in the eighties. Now, he’s back hosting podcasts and author blogs.

This is a VERY strange story. A story that I’ve not even shared with Adam as yet. Last week my wife and I were just talking about Adam, wondering whatever happened to him and where he is today? The very next morning, Adam popped in on my instant messenger, inviting me to return to his web as a blogger. About six years ago, I was highly active on his blog, writing a weekly article titled Everything Sci-Fi. I had also done some podcast interviews on my writing journey. Unfortunately, I had to take a break from this due to my physical issues going on. Now that I have a handle on them, I was more than ready to accept. So, effective immediately, I’m now a part of the Eat Sleep Write community one again and have committed to writing my weekly blog.

Yeah, I was hesitant at first since I do have these physical limitations… Well, I decided to do this regardless of my issues. I told Adam, “I can’t let these issues control me. I have to control them.” This will also be one of my blogs in the coming weeks.

You can find my first story, with updates, which was originally posted here, over there on my own blog page. Click this link to find me there.

Pirates Trilogy is on sale all week!!

Greetings to all you pirate lovers. Today, starting at 8am, Pirates of the Galactic Empire: The Trilogy, will be on a Kindle Countdown Deal!!

Yes, that’s right, starting today in just a couple hours from this post, this three volume eBook will be discounted from $7.99 to a miniscule $3.99 for two days. Then $5.99 until Saturday, March 12th at 8am. Don’t miss this fantastic discount. It’s three books in one volume and of course, if you have Kindle Unlimited, you can always read the entire work for free.

I think I’ve lost my mind, but we already know this.

Happy Reading…

The diagnosis is in

Well, I’ve been officially diagnosed with Keratoconus (pronounced keh-ruh-tow-kow-nuhs) in my left eye.

A condition in which the clear tissue on the front of the eye (cornea) bulges outward. With keratoconus, the clear, dome-shaped tissue that covers the eye (cornea) thins and bulges outward into a cone shape. Its cause is unknown.

This usually shows up in puberty or late teens, so, they’re mystified as to why now?

But the good news is, I can get this special contact and new glasses to see better.

I go in on the 7th for the fitting and then again to get it. But then, I’ll have to get the new glasses, so it’s a process.

They want to see me every six months to check it it’s changing. It it is changing significantly, there’s another procedure that will help.

I’m hoping I can tolerate the thing in my eye. Time will tell.

Getting a sclera contact fitting today

Wish me luck. It’s been a challenge finding a provider that does these sclera contacts and takes my insurance.

I’ll let you all know how this went later today as my appointment is at noon my time today. Once they take all the needed measurements, it’ll take a week to 10 days for it to come in. I also have to order a new set of glasses and get those to come in so I can try it all out.

Here’s to hoping all goes well.

Brian

Summoning the dead for Jury Duty

So, you may already know that my mom passed away last month on the 8th. Yesterday, and I kid you not, she received a summons for Jury Duty. I called and left a message at the clerk’s office. This morning, they called me to let me know she was excused. Wasn’t that nice of them? I wanted to kid with him that I could bring her ashes, but thought twice about that.

I’m wondering how random this really is as everyone in our household has been summoned for Jury Duty, most of us in the last 3 months.

On top of all that, I got a call yesterday from Visiting Physicians asking if mom still resided at the nursing home. I told them she passed last month. Her answer to me was the nursing home told them she was discharged. ‘??’ Well, I suppose that is accurate.

I don’t know what’s going on in this world we live in, but jeez! I’m tellin’ ya’ you really can’t make this stuff up.

Finally, a diagnosis for my eye

Well, after almost 3 hours at the eye clinic yesterday, I have a diagnosis on my blurry and double vision.

Apparently, the cornea in my left eye is warped. No explanation as to why and why all of a sudden. It’s very odd, he says. So, I told him it matches my personality of oddness and warped.

It’s called Monocular Diplopia caused by corneal ectasia which is a weakling of the cornea. Basically, the cornea becomes excessively thin and weak, and isn’t able to hold the normal eye pressure. Thus, it starts bulging out. The doctor explained it like pressing in on a balloon changing the shape. This causes the light to not reflect properly making the visual distortions of blurry and double vision.

Fortunately, there is a solution that might work. This is aside from a chemical a procedure that’s not guaranteed, or a cornea transplant; which is one idea really don’t want.

I’m going to schedule an appointment with my optometrist to fit me with one gas permeable ridged contact. Wearing this one hard contact lens will reshape the cornea when wearing. Then I have to have a new left lens made for my glasses so I can were them over the contact to correct the vision. He says since I have astigmatism, the contact will correct for that, so the left lens can’t correct for that, together.

The ophthalmologist doesn’t know why this has happened as this typically occurs earlier in life or after LASIK surgery. He also says rubbing your eyes can cause the cornea to warp. I’m not an eye rubber, but a word of caution if you do. Don’t do it.

For now, I’m going to get scheduled for this special contact fitting. I’m hoping I will adapt to this. I used to wear soft contacts years ago, but stopped because I needed readers and didn’t like taking them on and off. I even tried mono vision contacts, but it was not real good at the time. But now, since I’ll be wearing glasses to correct my vision over the contact, I just have to get used to putting them in.

So, as a funny side note, I told them that at least I got to wear steampunk glasses. I also noticed after, that I’m waring R2-D2…

Now, it’s time to get back into writing today. Finishing chapter 6 in Return to Revein’sev.

Been a challenging year already

Some of you might have wondered why I’ve been MIA, again. Well, I have a few health concerns that I’ve been dealing with. Some of which, I’ve already explained that I’ve got a pretty messed up neck and back. So bad, apparently, that the crushed and pinched nerves in my neck, has created several neurological symptoms. All of which, mimic Multiple Sclerosis or MS.

Late October, I got a new pair of glasses. I got through the eye test and was corrected to 20/10 in both eyes. I had a prism in my last prescription to correct a slight issue with double vision. Well, after my exam, we discovered I wasn’t having that issue, so it was taken out. A few weeks after seeing great in my new glasses, things began looking odd to me. It was like wearing the wrong prescription. I covered my left eye and everything was cleared up. Covering my right eye makes everything blurry and that double vision issue is back. But it’s only in one eye.

I went in for a recheck and the doctor is only able to correct my left eye to 20/70 and no matter what combination of prim the doctor tried, it was no longer correcting that issue. So, I was referred to an eye specialist. Even the digital image of my eyes have not revealed any underlying cause.

I’ve waited nearly a month to get in to a specialist. They’re first available appointment was 3 1/2 weeks out. So, tomorrow it it. I go in to, hopefully find out what the heck is going on now.

The ophthalmologist says it’s neurological if it’s only one eye. My neurologist says no, it’s not neurological if it’s only one eye. So, who do you believe, anyway?

So, there you have it. I’ve been taking lots of breaks to rest my eyes and my back and that’s why things are progressing on the slow side these days. Wish me luck tomorrow. I’ll be offline due to my eyes being dilated, but I’ll keep y’all updated.